Work

I guess there's no need to work for now,
since I'm going to work soon enough?

After considering quite a while, I guess it would be wise for me to invest my time in learning some new languages and stuffs, instead of working. =D.

Yeah money is cool...
But I don't really earn that much either...
so yeah..I guess spanish is better

青春？

呼。。。
今天这一篇可有得说了。。
今天正如往常，星期四是派对夜，所以想去跳跳舞聊聊天。
跳啊跳的，忽然有两个男的插入我们的圈子，尝试钓我们的妹。
但之所以妹对他们没兴趣，所以就给我朋友阻挡了。
戏来了，两个男的对立了起来，冲突一发不可收拾。
不懂是酒精还是义气，我看我朋友一个人要面对两个，想也不想就冲上去助阵了。

结果人家大我两倍，捉着我脖子要掐我。
我手一挥，把他那脏手打走，推了他，结果他又更出力的推回我。
双目对望，
眼看就要一发不可收拾。
之后来了保安，把场面稳住了些。
呼。。。

之后想了想，我这样是真的太冲动和无脑了。
可是有时，我真的做不到不讲义气，丢下朋友去死。
而且感觉上，男人，一生中，一定会有场不可不打的架，
要去争取，去努力，才能赢回自己的自尊。
男人没有自尊，不像女生，还可以活得好好的。
男人一旦没了自尊，是活不下去的。

觉得我今天真的是有点脑残，
却又有莫名的兴奋。
喝。。累死了。。

茶啊茶，你是我最忠心的人。

The light in the sky

No matter what happened,
I'm at the end of the sky,
always ready to be by your side.
Just tell me.

The dawn after the dark, shine across the street.
And I'm sure, that beside the end of the skyline lies a better future with a greater hope.
look past your doubts, and don't feel lonely, because you are loved.
You are blessed.
Just say the word, and I'm the one who will help you.
And not just me, but everyone.

You don't have to say either,
they are at your side, everyday, every night,
every second.
Whenever you have nightmares,
whenever you felt lonely,
we are right there.

I saw the light shooting across the dark sky.
It's so clear, just like the moonlight shining upon the sea in Cheratin.
Where you and I sitting on that beach,
talking about hopes and dreams.
like a little child.

Go, fly and pursue your dream,
so will I.

with a coffee, I end my story.

Some things

I'm gonna wake up everyday at 6 and go to FH at 7.30am everyday starting from tomorrow!

No coffee and tea for two days

Trying to get a hang on to myself.
I almost being consumed by my own hatred and vengeance.
And then..ironically...you and my memories saved me.

Reminiscing the little moments we had, savouring the little sweetness oozing out of our memories.
Just realized that we really shared a lot of moments.
Your 20 birthday in Sunway, where I bought you a cake, and gave you a cover in Friday's.
Our hang outs in the park.
Your valentine's cake for me.
We've been through a lot.
but I understand, he is a better man.
I finally have no regrets.
but with a firm grip in my hand,
I tell myself I'll be a better man.

All these memories started to fade away..
but the feelings are still firm.
And somehow this feeling makes me feel better.
and not letting the hate and unhappiness consume me.
I understand that these memories, will remain as memories forever.
I just pray that you never forget it.
will you??
I hope you won't...
Tell me if you see this.

Time passed...
wounds heal...
And all I can wish for..
Is you two to be happy forever.
I wish you happy.
I wish you too, happy.

Happy birthday to myself..

-lalallalala-

Swarmed

just figured out that I shouldn't be used or exploited by you anymore because it only causes misery to myself..and won't really cheer you up that much as well.
I'm done being your distraction,
and your atm as well.
Might as well start loving myself a little bit more.

Grüß
Fei

Alternatives

Hmmm..
My shits still can't seem to fade after all these times.
I guess a different approach is needed on this case.
I know what is the main reason that I can't sleep.
But since she's not gonna come back to me anymore,
might as well try to solve the not sleeping problem instead of solving the "she-not-coming-back" problem.
A warm milk is my first attempt.

At first I was thinking of binge eating and alot of movie,
but then again it occurs to me that it is not worthy at all to destroy my health just for such matter.
And yeah..I really did a lot of stuffs that is unhealthy at all.
so yeah...might as well try to keep myself as well as possible during this bad times you know..
I mean...how bad can it still be right...instead of making things worst by destroying my own health,
it came to my realisation that I should instead try to make things around me a little better..
hmmm.dunno...try first la..

at least I stop smoking d for now...which is kinda good I guess...dunno..

somehow the tea tasted better when the water is not that chalky.hmm.noted.

-tea-

Strabaparty + Schlachtplatte

So Yeah....

Getting ready for Tram-Party and Halloween Party...

I'm not really dressing up as anyone though cause I never thought I would be attending any party 

at this time.

but yeah,, will try to look the best out of it.

yeah!!getting ready and fired up!

And ta-da!This is the tram party. It literally means that we are partying on a tram.

Drinking alcohols in the Tram. As much as you like as long as there's still alcohols.

That is like the main point of my fucked up day later...the drink as much as you like alcohol. I'll get to that later.

Well I must say the ladies and the gentlemen are quite drunk and happy that day. But it was also soooooooo tight and lack of space....so I basically spent my time squishing around with people and ramming each other when the tram brakes. Alcohol spilling all around, people throwing up against each other and in the end of the day I vomit in a plastic bag. Five or six times. Can't really recall it. In short, was fun, but next time not too much alcohol again.

worst of all, I gotta wake up at 7.30 tomorrow to visit a friend in Nagold. I had such an extreme hangover that it lasted a whole day. But nevertheless, the trip to Nagold was unforgettable. The scenary is so beautiful, the hills are decorated with colourful trees dyed by the wonderful Autumn. Yellow and Red and Green placed themselves harmonically and well distributed, like a well-trained philharmonic.

And most of all, the most and utmost important part of this trip: Schlachtplatte!!!

It basically can be translated as, slaughter plate. And as you can see, it isn't something that the vegan will love. but still!! The liver sausage, the light brown coloured one, it was so thick and juicy and rich-flavoured. The spices that they added to the liver sausage was godlike, and as I squeezed the liver puree out of the sausage and mixed it with the Sauerkraut, put it in my mouth,

It's like a pool party in my mouth, where salivas, meat juices and deliciousness all fused into a dynamic body.

and the blood sausage, the darkest one, it is so richly spiced that I can't stop eating it. It brings the plate the whole body and spirit, and I just wanna hug it tight and tell it how much I love it. The little blood and meat fused together, enriched the flavour of the blood sausage. 

And the pork belly! Awwww the pork belly! It reminds me of the flavour of my hometown, the pork made by my mom, which could never be compared with the smelly pork I had in germany. DAT pork belly..The fat will actually melt in my mouth..and it tasted legendary even without any sauces. Last but not least, the Bratwurst. It is tasty, it is the Sausage of the sausages, and, it is unforgettable. I love it so much, I actually had a food-gasm. And I came not once, not twice, but three times!

And lastly, ta-da. Le huge house of my friend. Damn he's rich. And he has three rooms. There were like 9 rooms in total in his house.

And I end my day, with a cup of tea, becuz of that fucking heavy meal...

and a little missing you.

-Tea-